...the same bosoms...

It was the usual chat with my hubby but our conversation went deeper. We talked a lot of stuff. Mostly silly and stupid ones... hehehe. But whenever he speaks of something serious, I do not only open my ears, I unlock my heart... my soul. Jef's not the type of person that would dwell on mushy things pero madrama din yang asawa kong yang. Just that, he soumetimes hinder himself to disclose whatever he feels. That's why I oftentimes misunderstood him. Probably coz I tend to neutralize my feelings. But with those overrated actions only one point always comes to life.... that he loves me, more than anyone and anything else. Sa kabila ng anumang pinagdaanan at pagdadaanan pa naming dalawa sa buhay bilang mag-asawa.

Here's a part of our long chitchat:

Jef: wat would u do ba if i die here..will u remarry ba sa iba?
Jef: truth ha?
Jef: was thinking of that b4 e......
She: pls dont say that babe... pero hypothetical question lang.... i dont... i really dont want to get remarried e
Jef: look at justin he is so goofy with his faces....hehehe
Jef: ah okay jus wondring e....
Jef: hey have to get ready for guard na ha.....
She: sabi ko nga... sana if ever sino man sa atin mauna, you know, sana magkita uli tyo sa next life... lam mo yun... i would torture myself thinking abt that...
Jef: baby dnt cry
She: sabi ko if ever ako mauna sana hindi ka na rin mag-asawa
Jef: well hope to God na i get back so we can make more babies...hehehe
Jef: yah
Jef: i prob wont.....
She: yun nga lang lagi kong dasal e... hindi na to get rich or something... gusto ko lang to grow old with you
Jef: yah me too....
She: u prob wont... hehehe... sabi ko nga e... probability... meron pa rin chance na mag-asawa ka uli...
Jef: baka maybe u never know e....
She: naiisip mo rin pala yun... kala ko ako lang nag-iisip e...
She: well, wala na naman ako magagawa if u do get married uli e... mumultuhin lang kita! heheheh wooooh!
Jef: enough of that na.....
Jef: yah me too....

With those who got their own GG (God's gift, partner in life, spouse), do you guys ever talk about this too? ...Just wondering...

Have you ever thought of things like this?

Few weeks before Jef left for his deployment I really can't go to sleep. The night is silent, all are deeply resting. I don't want to shut my eyes coz everytime I do that unpleasant thoughts are running inside my head. I would just ask Jef to hug me tight. I would snuggle under his arm like a baby. And there I would start to cry... to his chest I called my home. I felt like he finds it kaartehan... Not til now that we do share the same sentiments pala...

Well, baby, just wanted to reassure you that I will always be loving you, no matter what. As I said before, I didn't ask God for you but He gave me the most wonderful gift and I thank Him for that. I could not ask for anything more than to spend my lifetime with you. I love you and miss you much!